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My sister is going to have her first baby in June.
We just found out it's going to be a boy.
After seeing this picture, and after hearing that it's a boy, somehow this became a lot more real to me. I even choked up a little bit.
At first I was like, what am I getting so emotional for? Then I realized: it's because this is the first time our mom's genes will be carried forward into the next generation.
My mom died of cancer at 44. There was so much that she didn't get to do. She was taken too soon.
This baby carries her genes, her cells. A piece of who she was.
And this baby will outlive me and my siblings.
A part of my mom will be alive after I'm gone.
That means so, so much to me.
I know the baby is not born yet, and I do not want to place any expectations or burdens of existence. When they join us in this world, they'll of course be their own person. But I also look forward to looking into his eyes, and seeing a little glimmer from my mother's soul.
I hope that's not too weird.
Just wanted to share.
In less emotional and more materialistic news, the arrival of unexpected birthday-and-other presents continued throughout the week. My goodness! I've done nothing to deserve any of it.
My brother Jonah sent a big bag of Japanese candy and snacks, we're having a lot of fun experiencing those already! It's amazing how many unexpected textures exist in Japanese snack food. I love eating new things :)
He also sent some very fancy whisky barrel-aged shoyu (soy sauce) that looks like it belongs on the top shelf of a CEO's liquor cabinet.
We'll use it for sushi and stuff, but I definitely want to have it as a marinade for a beautiful piece of meat at some point.
Kayle sent me a big bag of matcha (amazing since I love matcha but will rarely treat myself to it) and a matcha tea preparation set!
And also this big circus compendium. As soon as I posted the picture circus people started commenting to say they'd read it and sharing how much they enjoyed the book. I'm excited to dive in, but it's going to have to wait until I get caught up in steno!
My parents sent a Burpee gift card, and I'm hoping to use it to get some Burpee planter soil! It's supposed to be really good, more lightweight and aerated, so I'm hoping it'll help the carrots to grow properly. It's a really thoughtful gift as gardening season starts pretty much now. They also sent a murder mystery puzzle! I've never heard of such a thing and Jameson and I are really intrigued by it. More updates on that later.
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We just found out it's going to be a boy.
After seeing this picture, and after hearing that it's a boy, somehow this became a lot more real to me. I even choked up a little bit.
At first I was like, what am I getting so emotional for? Then I realized: it's because this is the first time our mom's genes will be carried forward into the next generation.
My mom died of cancer at 44. There was so much that she didn't get to do. She was taken too soon.
This baby carries her genes, her cells. A piece of who she was.
And this baby will outlive me and my siblings.
A part of my mom will be alive after I'm gone.
That means so, so much to me.
I know the baby is not born yet, and I do not want to place any expectations or burdens of existence. When they join us in this world, they'll of course be their own person. But I also look forward to looking into his eyes, and seeing a little glimmer from my mother's soul.
I hope that's not too weird.
Just wanted to share.
In less emotional and more materialistic news, the arrival of unexpected birthday-and-other presents continued throughout the week. My goodness! I've done nothing to deserve any of it.
My brother Jonah sent a big bag of Japanese candy and snacks, we're having a lot of fun experiencing those already! It's amazing how many unexpected textures exist in Japanese snack food. I love eating new things :)
He also sent some very fancy whisky barrel-aged shoyu (soy sauce) that looks like it belongs on the top shelf of a CEO's liquor cabinet.
We'll use it for sushi and stuff, but I definitely want to have it as a marinade for a beautiful piece of meat at some point.
Kayle sent me a big bag of matcha (amazing since I love matcha but will rarely treat myself to it) and a matcha tea preparation set!
And also this big circus compendium. As soon as I posted the picture circus people started commenting to say they'd read it and sharing how much they enjoyed the book. I'm excited to dive in, but it's going to have to wait until I get caught up in steno!
My parents sent a Burpee gift card, and I'm hoping to use it to get some Burpee planter soil! It's supposed to be really good, more lightweight and aerated, so I'm hoping it'll help the carrots to grow properly. It's a really thoughtful gift as gardening season starts pretty much now. They also sent a murder mystery puzzle! I've never heard of such a thing and Jameson and I are really intrigued by it. More updates on that later.
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