Time Travel
Dec. 15th, 2024 07:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
taz_391. What did you want to be when you grew up?
As a toddler: bus driver! I blame the song, "Wheels on the Bus" haha!
After Jurassic Park came out, I went through QUITE a long phase of wanting to be a paleontologist.
Did not want to be a musician until about 5th grade.
2. Did you follow through? If not, what happened?
Considering that I first started considering being a musician in the 5th grade, I'd count that as a follow-through!
I know that a lot of people struggle to know what their "dream job" is, or feel guilty for not "following through" with childhood aspirations. But first of all, a lot of childhood "wanna be's" are founded on nothing at all...not knowing what you're good at, not knowing what's needed to become, say, a ballerina or a fireman. Becoming a musician WAS not easy, and being one IS not easy; it's just rewarding because I enjoy it, have invested a lot of work and effort into achieving it, and still have adventures to look forward to with it. But I easily could have worked just as hard or harder and not been successful. I think that success in a career is like 40% follow-through and 60% the chaos of life dictating what direction your path takes.
3. Is your life turning out the way you thought it would when you were a kid? If not, is it better or worse?
No, not at all! I didn't have clear thoughts on what my life would be like in the future anyway. I have always been both a realist and a pessimist even from a young age. So when it came to music, I hoped to end up in a major symphony orchestra, but also felt that there was a big chance I'd be living in a shitty NYC apartment with 10 other people and busking to afford rice and beans. Both were VERY real possibilities to me, and at some point I asked myself if I was willing to accept either outcome, and when the answer was "yes" I began to pursue music.
I also thought my mom would still be alive. And did not expect to meet someone that I wanted to spend my life with, either.
So with all that in mind, my life as a musician has been far better and more interesting than I could have ever imagined. I never dreamed that I could be a part of a circus for five whole years. Or work on a cruise ship, or take tours across the country, or play in a Disney band.
But as far as personal life, and loved ones, it is far worse than expected because my mom is not here...and, better than expected, because Jameson is a part of my life.
4. Paradoxes aside, if you could time-travel back to when you were 10 years old, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?
Your father is WRONG about everything about you. Do not listen.
Don't tell your sister about her questionable parentage.
GO TO YOUR MOTHER when she's dying. Don't be intimidated by potential anger from your dad or stepmom.
Starting now, work on getting citizenship in another country.
Invest in Apple.
5. Do you think the child you were, would like the adult you've become?
Mostly, yes. I think child me would be annoyed at how low-energy I am now, and surprised that I'd given up the orchestra route, but considering all the other stuff I've gotten to do I think even 10-year-old me would understand. Child me would probably think I ended up looking "gross" too HAHA. But child me was never into kids or socializing, so I think they would not be surprised at how I currently avoid my sister's kids or making new friends. Yes, child me would generally approve haha.
As a toddler: bus driver! I blame the song, "Wheels on the Bus" haha!
After Jurassic Park came out, I went through QUITE a long phase of wanting to be a paleontologist.
Did not want to be a musician until about 5th grade.
2. Did you follow through? If not, what happened?
Considering that I first started considering being a musician in the 5th grade, I'd count that as a follow-through!
I know that a lot of people struggle to know what their "dream job" is, or feel guilty for not "following through" with childhood aspirations. But first of all, a lot of childhood "wanna be's" are founded on nothing at all...not knowing what you're good at, not knowing what's needed to become, say, a ballerina or a fireman. Becoming a musician WAS not easy, and being one IS not easy; it's just rewarding because I enjoy it, have invested a lot of work and effort into achieving it, and still have adventures to look forward to with it. But I easily could have worked just as hard or harder and not been successful. I think that success in a career is like 40% follow-through and 60% the chaos of life dictating what direction your path takes.
3. Is your life turning out the way you thought it would when you were a kid? If not, is it better or worse?
No, not at all! I didn't have clear thoughts on what my life would be like in the future anyway. I have always been both a realist and a pessimist even from a young age. So when it came to music, I hoped to end up in a major symphony orchestra, but also felt that there was a big chance I'd be living in a shitty NYC apartment with 10 other people and busking to afford rice and beans. Both were VERY real possibilities to me, and at some point I asked myself if I was willing to accept either outcome, and when the answer was "yes" I began to pursue music.
I also thought my mom would still be alive. And did not expect to meet someone that I wanted to spend my life with, either.
So with all that in mind, my life as a musician has been far better and more interesting than I could have ever imagined. I never dreamed that I could be a part of a circus for five whole years. Or work on a cruise ship, or take tours across the country, or play in a Disney band.
But as far as personal life, and loved ones, it is far worse than expected because my mom is not here...and, better than expected, because Jameson is a part of my life.
4. Paradoxes aside, if you could time-travel back to when you were 10 years old, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?
Your father is WRONG about everything about you. Do not listen.
Don't tell your sister about her questionable parentage.
GO TO YOUR MOTHER when she's dying. Don't be intimidated by potential anger from your dad or stepmom.
Starting now, work on getting citizenship in another country.
Invest in Apple.
5. Do you think the child you were, would like the adult you've become?
Mostly, yes. I think child me would be annoyed at how low-energy I am now, and surprised that I'd given up the orchestra route, but considering all the other stuff I've gotten to do I think even 10-year-old me would understand. Child me would probably think I ended up looking "gross" too HAHA. But child me was never into kids or socializing, so I think they would not be surprised at how I currently avoid my sister's kids or making new friends. Yes, child me would generally approve haha.
